Joyce commented on my last post Serenity that it was the most personal post she had seen from me. I was touched by her comment. so maybe I will post one or two more like that as time goes by.
This morning as I lay in bed listening to the radio they were playing a couple of songs that were featured in a listener’s favourite 5 songs. This is a feature that this radio station have been running for many years. A listener tells them their top 5 songs and the station then play 2 of those 5 songs. I have never sent mine in because how do you chose just 5 out of all the many many songs I have adored over the years of my life.
If pushed to name my 5 songs I would start with this song by 10cc it was one of my favourites when I was at school. Some songs just send a thrill down my spine and this was one of them.
Next would always be this Moody Blues Classic again it sent shivers down my spine and still does every time I hear it. Both these songs were always played at parties and disco’s during my teens and early 20s.
A third song that struck me in a similar way as a young adult shortly after I had left school and begun working was this 1977 release by Rose Royce.
So now I have 3 out of my 5 songs but what else has struck me in the same way? There were many many songs that had a lot of meaning to me. Many also that I just loved to sing along to. The ones I danced to and ones I later loved to. I have countless songs in my head that I loved as soon as I heard them. Others that grew on me.
But how do I choose just 2 more out of the thousands?
There is one more song that I have long thought of as my personal anthem. I am sure you are all familiar with this classic song by Gloria Gaynor I will Survive. Being a child of the 60s I loved the disco era, Stylistics, Diana Ross, Hot Chocolate, Amy Stewart, Tavares to name but a few. I couldn’t not love this song.
In 2001 I was diagnosed with stage III Cervical Cancer, my then husband told our children that I was going to die. My children at the time were aged 5 through to 13. Obviously this was devastating news for them. However I had other ideas. With four sons to watch growing up I wasn’t about to give in to something like cancer. I had too much to live for. So I will Survive became my anthem. As you can see I did survive and have been in remission since September 2001. I do not however take my continuing life for granted.
In 2005 I reached a stage where my marriage was no longer bearable. Again I will Survive became my anthem as I struggled to get through the awfulness of a messy divorce where we both continued to live in the same house. I turned I will Survive into the tune played by my alarm on my phone so that each morning I would awake to the sound of these powerful words.
A couple of years ago I was thinking about this song and came up with my own version.
You made me feel so small | |||||
You bullied me without me realising it | |||||
You told me nobody would want me | |||||
How could I manage on my own with four children | |||||
It was a long time before I could relax | |||||
Afraid you would return | |||||
I grew strong | |||||
I learned how to carry on | |||||
But you won’t disappear | |||||
into outer space | |||||
You keep calling | |||||
Wanting to try again | |||||
I changed the locks immediately | |||||
Your key wouldn’t help you | |||||
I hoped and prayed that | |||||
you would stop bothering me | |||||
Go on Now leave me alone | |||||
Delete my number don’t ever call | |||||
Cause your voice is not welcome in my ear | |||||
weren’t you the one who tried to hurt me with threats | |||||
You thought I would crumble | |||||
You thought you could make me lose my mind | |||||
Oh no, not I | |||||
I have survived | |||||
As long as I know how to love | |||||
I know I will stay alive | |||||
I’ve got all my life to live | |||||
I’ve got all my love to give | |||||
and I’ll survive | |||||
I will survive | |||||
It took all the strength I had | |||||
not to fall apart | |||||
kept trying hard to mend | |||||
the pieces of my damaged confidence | |||||
and I spent oh so many nights | |||||
glad you were gone | |||||
I used to cringe | |||||
Now I hold my head up high | |||||
and you see me | |||||
somebody new | |||||
I’m not that chained up little person | |||||
still afraid of you | |||||
and so you felt like calling up | |||||
and just expect me to be free | |||||
Now I’m saving all my loving | |||||
for someone who will cherish me | |||||
So I guess this would be my fourth song but number 5 is still elusive as there are just too many to choose from.
What would be your top 5 songs and why?
What an amazing set of words. I will be thinking of my top 5 songs and answer your question soon.
I love the first two on your list. I can’t access the third – which is it?
I don’t know if I could ever name just five. For one thing, my favorite band is The Beatles, and almost every song they ever did could be my favorite on any given day. Ditto for Led Zeppelin. Also I have a lot of jazz favorites.
For now, let’s say, Dear Prudence by the Fab Four and Friends by Led Zep. Moanin Low by Billie Holiday.
I’d say you most definitely are a survivor. Thank you for sharing this.
I’m in: (I know it’s 6)
Tim McGraw’s Live Like you were Dying
Theme Song to Miami Vice by Jan Hammer
Raise Your Glass by P!nk
Kentucky Rain by Elvis Presley
I Could Not ask for More by Sara Evans
How Do I Live by Trisha Yearwood
Beautiful words!