Joyce commented on my last post Serenity that it was the most personal post she had seen from me. I was touched by her comment. so maybe I will post one or two more like that as time goes by.
This morning as I lay in bed listening to the radio they were playing a couple of songs that were featured in a listener’s favourite 5 songs. This is a feature that this radio station have been running for many years. A listener tells them their top 5 songs and the station then play 2 of those 5 songs. I have never sent mine in because how do you chose just 5 out of all the many many songs I have adored over the years of my life.
If pushed to name my 5 songs I would start with this song by 10cc it was one of my favourites when I was at school. Some songs just send a thrill down my spine and this was one of them.
Next would always be this Moody Blues Classic again it sent shivers down my spine and still does every time I hear it. Both these songs were always played at parties and disco’s during my teens and early 20s.
A third song that struck me in a similar way as a young adult shortly after I had left school and begun working was this 1977 release by Rose Royce.
So now I have 3 out of my 5 songs but what else has struck me in the same way? There were many many songs that had a lot of meaning to me. Many also that I just loved to sing along to. The ones I danced to and ones I later loved to. I have countless songs in my head that I loved as soon as I heard them. Others that grew on me.
But how do I choose just 2 more out of the thousands?
There is one more song that I have long thought of as my personal anthem. I am sure you are all familiar with this classic song by Gloria Gaynor I will Survive. Being a child of the 60s I loved the disco era, Stylistics, Diana Ross, Hot Chocolate, Amy Stewart, Tavares to name but a few. I couldn’t not love this song.
In 2001 I was diagnosed with stage III Cervical Cancer, my then husband told our children that I was going to die. My children at the time were aged 5 through to 13. Obviously this was devastating news for them. However I had other ideas. With four sons to watch growing up I wasn’t about to give in to something like cancer. I had too much to live for. So I will Survive became my anthem. As you can see I did survive and have been in remission since September 2001. I do not however take my continuing life for granted.
In 2005 I reached a stage where my marriage was no longer bearable. Again I will Survive became my anthem as I struggled to get through the awfulness of a messy divorce where we both continued to live in the same house. I turned I will Survive into the tune played by my alarm on my phone so that each morning I would awake to the sound of these powerful words.
A couple of years ago I was thinking about this song and came up with my own version.
|You made me feel so small|
|You bullied me without me realising it|
|You told me nobody would want me|
|How could I manage on my own with four children|
|It was a long time before I could relax|
|Afraid you would return|
|I grew strong|
|I learned how to carry on|
|But you won’t disappear|
|into outer space|
|You keep calling|
|Wanting to try again|
|I changed the locks immediately|
|Your key wouldn’t help you|
|I hoped and prayed that|
|you would stop bothering me|
|Go on Now leave me alone|
|Delete my number don’t ever call|
|Cause your voice is not welcome in my ear|
|weren’t you the one who tried to hurt me with threats|
|You thought I would crumble|
|You thought you could make me lose my mind|
|Oh no, not I|
|I have survived|
|As long as I know how to love|
|I know I will stay alive|
|I’ve got all my life to live|
|I’ve got all my love to give|
|and I’ll survive|
|I will survive|
|It took all the strength I had|
|not to fall apart|
|kept trying hard to mend|
|the pieces of my damaged confidence|
|and I spent oh so many nights|
|glad you were gone|
|I used to cringe|
|Now I hold my head up high|
|and you see me|
|I’m not that chained up little person|
|still afraid of you|
|and so you felt like calling up|
|and just expect me to be free|
|Now I’m saving all my loving|
|for someone who will cherish me|
So I guess this would be my fourth song but number 5 is still elusive as there are just too many to choose from.
What would be your top 5 songs and why?